I’ve finally resigned.

It takes 1 minute to type the resignation letter, 10 seconds to press the send button, and then it’s over. 5 years, just like that.

It had been an incredible journey in my company. 5 years of mostly stress free life, chances to go to sunny California on business trips, excellent salary and zero office politics. What more can one ask for? Then why do I want to leave?

It’s because while the conditions are good, it lacks something. I don’t feel connected to the company. I don’t feel any ownership in any project because they are but outsources from other clients. Once the contract ends, so does the project.

I’m always the kind that wants to do things my way, even if it means reinventing the wheel. Good and bad, this way had always led to me learning new things that I might have not learnt in the past, and perhaps also because of this I am striking out on my own to walk my own vision.

I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I do know the sinking feeling when I pressed the send button on that resignation e-mail. That’s the comfort zone imploding right in front of me, and from then on its the rocky seas and unknown future. It might be a maelstrom, or it might be smooth sailing. Who knows? Will I survive? I will. I have skills that I can count on to save my own ass. The question that I should really be asking is…

Will I succeed? I do hope so.

Time to start fighting.

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